another Wave of Grief

I’m just naive enough to not have seen it coming. I knew he needed to leave. Either the timing or the calling wasn’t right for him. His heart wasn’t here and his mind was consumed with the challenges ahead of him once he returned to the US without us. At 18, there’s no telling what’s … Read more

Always Learning

I mentioned here that we’ve finally begun settling into a routine. School is happening again and I’m so relieved. But the truth is, even when the books weren’t being pulled out, learning was happening. So, so much learning. Things like not stepping over someone, or their things, even if they’re sitting in the middle of … Read more

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The former things have passed away …

As I sit writing this, I’m tucked away in the only room in the house with AC. It’s 10:30 in the morning and my weather app says it’s 90 degrees outside with 62% humidity making it feel like 102. And the neighbor girl says this is Sukhothai’s “winter”. I haven’t had a hot shower in … Read more

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grieving the Missionary call

A missionary call that doesn’t look how I expected. The afternoon was quiet. The girls were gone to the house of friends helping with yard work. The only “older” boy still living at home was gone to the Y and then to his brother’s house for the evening. The three little boys were outside working and playing and imagining. They’d been … Read more

when you find yourself praying for that which you don’t want

It’s strange, really. Because this is where I’m finding myself lately. Praying endlessly and earnestly for the way to be made clear to leave a place I love for a place that, on most days, I’m not sure I want to go. More true, probably, would be that the going isn’t so hard as is … Read more

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